Disclosure: contains hypnotic language which may trance some people.

Thursday, March 31, 2016

She was up to no good

I talked to Athena about this blog and my Twitter account from time to time, but she had no interest in reading them. However, she was happy to supply selfies for me to publish.

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So deeply hypnotized...

So many good pictures it was hard for me to pick just one... Athena really knew how to take selfies.

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Sink deeply...


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Keep going deeper...


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What I say becomes real...

Tuesday, March 29, 2016

Hypnosis and whip play

We are still waiting for the whip to arrive.

Athena: B, this hypnosis thing comes really handy. When I whip you, I don’t need any restraints. No gag. You won’t be able to make a sound. Only helplessly hypnotized.

“Really?” I thought to myself. Will the pain wake me up? Or will it deepen my trance? Until I’m numb? Will I able to call it stop? Will it be safe? Will my unconscious keep it safe? My mind wonders…

Thursday, March 24, 2016

Waltzing in the lead

Our 6 year old daughter Jill: I want you and mom to dance waltz to my violin playing.

Me: That’s so sweet of you. But daddy doesn’t know how to dance waltz.

Athena: That’s quite alright. I’ll lead.

Tuesday, March 22, 2016

Hidden desire

I was reading some Femdom blog, and Athena leaned over to take a look out of curiosity. “That’s a pretty picture. She is pretty. It’s a good picture. Is she holding a whip?” Athena asked.

My heart jumped. I though whip was sexy, but I didn’t want pain. I proceeded cautiously, “Should I shop for one?”

“I don’t understand people who want pain. That’s weird. I would whip you if you like. It may hurt.”

Athena surprised me.

I didn’t think she liked to dole out pain. I better talk her out of it. “I’m going to be good. You’ll have no reason to whip me. Whipping is tiring. Besides, it’s a lot of work tracking points of my behavior for reward/punishment. We are not even doing that now.”

Athena laughed out loud. “Why need reason to whip you?”

I watched her grinning, a bit stunned. Not sure if I should encourage her or talk her out of it.

She continued, “I’d have to learn to whip quietly so I don’t wake up the kids. Do some research on that. See if they make quiet whips.”

Later I showed her some whips online. Athena was looking through them. “These look kind small. Do they have something bigger? Oooo… that one looks like it’s gonna hurt and cause some bleeding. Think you can take that one?” It was a nine tail black and red whip. Her favorite colors.

“Can you just wave it around?”

“Wave it around?” Athena looked puzzled, bored, or disappointed. Her expression looked like “What’s the fun in that?” without saying it out loud. Then she changed the subject.

She never told me to buy the whip. I ordered it anyway. The one Athena had her eye on.

Tuesday, March 15, 2016

Quitted smoking

Athena was very persistent on making me going to sleep every night. It was both erotic and boring at the same time. What could be more boring than sleeping? Nothing kinky about it. But when forced upon me, it felt very kinky. Sometimes I wanted to talk. Or to beg released from chastity. Or just to scratch an itch. But I wasn’t able to do anything, not too different from being gaged and bound.

Every three or four days Athena would put me under hypnosis and give me a handjob. I would appear comatose, no sound nor movement. Athena would wipe me clean and go to sleep after. I didn’t know what was the appeal. I was alert and aware of what was going on the whole time under hypnosis, but incapable of doing anything. During the day time, I mentioned to Athena she didn’t have to give me handjobs at all. Or she could wait for longer intervals. That fell on deaf ears.

So after a few weeks chastity became boring. I was getting orgasms about every three days. Usually sooner. I wanted longer periods of chastity, but Athena just did whatever she wanted and ignored me. Therefore, I came up with the idea of using chastity to help me quit smoking. Athena always wanted me to quit smoking. I said that she could talk directly to my unconscious to find out if I smoked, and then hand out punishment/reward.

I read cautions against using hypnosis for therapy by non-professionals. I figured that I’m using chastity, not hypnosis, so it should be safe.

We spent the first few days making sure that my unconscious could not lie to Athena. Luckily it turned out to be true. Then one evening Athena really took her time putting me under hypnosis. I was under deeply.

Athena: You may move freely. Talk to me. Did you smoke today?

I opened my eyes and moved around a little bit. I didn’t feel any different. Then I sat down. I knew I was under hypnosis only because the long induction and no counting up waking sequence yet. Otherwise I felt normal. Then I answered “Yes. Only one cigarette.”

Athena: One week without orgasm.

Me: Cool. I wish you would be more in charge of me like that. Can you act angrily?

Athena: Oh, that’ll be fun. Ok, here it goes, I’m going to pretend angry. Watch me, I’m really angry now. If you smoke again, it will be 30 days of chastity.

I didn’t know it, but under hypnosis without my conscious self’s presence, my analytical facility was gone. I could not tell if Athena was actually angry or just pretend, even though she told me she was pretending. It looked real to me and burned an impression deeply in my unconscious. It was truly frightful to me. I slid down from the chair to the floor, buried my head between my knees in a fetal position trembling. I searched my analytical facility in vain, trying to get it to tell me that it was not real, that it was only an act. I barely made it out in a shaky voice, “wake me up now…”

Athena had no idea what was going on in my head. But she knew it’d be better not to wake me up right away. “Go to your safe place. Calm.” She spent some time to sooth me before counting up to wake me.

That awful frightful feeling lingered for a few seconds and then it became memory. But it was very vivid and intense that I never wanted to experience it again. That was seven months ago as I’m writing this. I haven’t smoked since.

Monday, March 7, 2016

Forever in uniform

I had been put in charge of coming up with all FLR ideas and implementing them. Athena just went along for the ride. Whenever I suggested an idea, Athena just did it. We didn’t talk much about it. So I wasn’t sure if Athena really did like the activities, or she was indulging me.

On a lunch date, I decided to ask. I had been wearing a symbolic slave uniform which was an old cheap watch every evening. I took it off in the mornings before going to work. So I wasn’t wearing the watch during lunch. I raised my wrist, pointing to it with the other hand, and asked, “About the slave uniform I was wearing,”

Athena cut me off before I could finish my sentence. “You will keep doing that everyday all the time. Including holidays or when you do business travel. We’ll continue our FLR without interruption. You can keep coming up with new ideas. It’s fun. It’s definitely making my life easier.”

I got my answer.

Athena added, “It was going to be a surprise, but since you brought up the conversation, I bought you a bracelet. You can wear that instead of the cheap Casio watch. We should receive it in the next few days. I thought you’d like that.”

Athena actually took an initiative. I had been doing it right. I thought I’d just push for a tiny more. After all, she asked me to come up with new ideas.

“Would you like me to wear the uniform all the time?” I asked.
“Do it” was her reply.

Thursday, March 3, 2016

Faceplant

Before I went to bed, we talked about children, school, and made plans for the next few days. Like we always did every night. Usually I would be lying down next the Athena. Except for tonight, I was standing next to the bed.

After a while, Athena asked, “Why are you standing like that?”

I answered, “I’m afraid I won’t be able to talk if I’m in the bed. I’d be deeply hypnotized.”

Athena said, “Oh, I forgot about that.”

I said, “I’d like you to understand that it’s not something I can forget easily. I’m in this hypnotic chastity, which keeps me aroused and remind me of all the suggestions all the time. I just want you to know that.”

Athena said, “Oh, ok. I don’t really know how you feel. I can go on for weeks without having sex, so if you didn’t tell me, I wouldn’t really know that. Now, come here and kiss me.”

I approached carefully. I lean forward slowly, but as soon as I entered the vertical plane of the bed’s boundary, I lost control. My conscious fled the house. Completely gone. I faceplanted on the bed then became immobile. My unconscious self was still there. I heard Athena LOL.

After Athena caught her breathing from laughing, she said “Oh poor baby under my control. You may move about to a more comfortable position then go to natural sleep.”

Wednesday, March 2, 2016

Automatic shutdown

Chastity was a horrible feeling. At nights, I was tossing and turning. I couldn’t go to sleep.

Athena had enough of me tossing and turning. She was about to hypnotize me to sleep again, so I mentioned that she could make the suggestion permanent so she wouldn’t have to do this every night.

I felt I was making the whole situation worse for myself. My head was filled with all these horrible ideas. After reading Vanilla Dominatrix, I knew whenever I got the chance, I should ask Athena to act upon these horrible ideas. This was one of the times.

Athena was eager to see me sleeping. She acted right away. “From now on, when it’s time to sleep and you are lying in the bed like you are now, the more aroused you are, the deeper you will fall asleep.” Then she grabbed my hand and used my fingers to masturbate. I was going deep so fast I felt I was jumping out of an airplane. My conscious was completely gone.

Tuesday, March 1, 2016

Deep sleep mode

After orally pleasing Athena, she ordered me finish the laundry and then to sleep. That was the second night in a row Athena hypnotized me into natural sleep.

Again, my body dutifully went to sleep. Even though I retained my consciousness for a few seconds, my heart rate and breathing dropped to deep sleep mode immediately. Not gradually or after a few seconds; it was immediate. Just to satisfy my own curiosity, I counted my breathing rate dropped down to 3-5 seconds per inhale/exhale, about 2-3 seconds pause between inhale/exhale. About 7-12 seconds for a complete breathing cycle. I lost my consciousness when my count was in the 40 seconds range. I couldn’t really remember clearly.

Without a timer or watch, I didn’t think I would be able to count my heart rate. I’d have to ask Athena to measure it for me.

I never expected my heart rate or breathing to be affected by Athena. It really felt like I was forced going into sleep. I was astounded. It was a bit scary, but I couldn’t really think of any ill effects. It felt like I was being controlled, but only because I allowed it.